"Hide in that corner! No, not that one, this one! Here, let me show you!"

Massive, massive points to the Society for putting up quite a scare-fest down at the block.

We were first forced to watch 'Sisters', then 'Shutter'. Sisters was alright.

*WOOO-OOOH-OOOOHHOOOOOOHHHHOOOOHHH~~*

(No, stop pulling that lock of hair from the ceiling! No, you're gonna get us all - WHY ARE YOU STILL DOING THAT?!)

The last time I laughed that hard was during Ju-On. (AWWWWW itty-bitty boy's adorabl- ARGH GHOST GHOST GHOST)

Shutter was terrifying shit. It remains one of the reasons why I don't like using mirrors or cameras. That's my excuse for being camera-shy, because I'm trying to curb narcissism.

Cough.

Did I mention that both shows were the Thai versions? Good f*cking lord.

Midnight soon struck - And, ah, it was time for a nice relaxing walk through the FMS block, the same one built on an ex-cemetery. On hindsight, which part of Singapore -didn't- have something dead buried in it?

Groups were formed, and the OGLs did not allow us to carry ectoplasmic weaponary.

With every group member forced to complete at least a single station all alone, our 'challenge' was to look for clues in a murder case. It doesn't help that the 'murdered' has a fantastic sense of humour. So here you have blatent irony as she plays ping-pong with our poor hearts, while we're trying to -help- her.

So we proceeded to our first station.

AHHHHHHHH!

No, not yet.

We had two guys and four girls. 3-5 with a male and female OGL.

First station was an individual one. Everyone drew lots - numbered 'one' to 'six'. The one who got number 'seven' shat bricks. As probability would have it, a girl got numba one. A quick exchange later, the other guy went into the long corrider room-thing. Blindfolded.

He had to listen for guiding sounds, like chains, moans, and other supernatural noises. Instructions were to get to the other end by -feeling- your way through. Guy took chair and bulldozed his way through. Long story short, ghost gave up and relinquished the first clues. Looks like chairs are fatal to ghosts.

OGL warned of scare ambushes. We prepared for it.

Badly.

Lights flickered at the FMS lobby, and the first scare (IT WAS BEHIND THE PILLAR WASN'T IT?) sent the girls screaming into the dark abyss of the night. That sparked off a chain effect - The guys got quite a shock too (read: screamed like little girls).

I recovered from the shock quickly, and was in the midst of laughing it off when another one scared me shitless a few seconds later.

They were going for combos.


There were three elevators one could take to the ninth floor, where the second station would be located. The seniors somehow managed to short out the other two, forcing us to take the remaining one. No walkin' up the stairs - Rules are rules.

Okay, sure. Let's go up, then. The faster we hurry, the faster we can get this over and done with.

It was a different story when the elevator finally arrived though.

"I'm not going in there."

"You have to, it's the only way up."

"Bleh."

Reason: There was a hanging, bloodied head smack right in the middle of the damn contraption.

The guys took the lead and entered. My itchy fingers touched the... football? The paper mache was slimy and wet. Girls screamed in.

Only one button was lit. The rest of the buttons were covered with obituaries. Actually, the entire lift was. That's -alot- of dead people. The menacing whirring of the lift as it proceeded up didn't make things any better, as the head threatened to hit anyone who was foolish enough to stand too close to it.

Ol' head in the elevator trick never fails to scare anyone.

Everyone looked down and tried to compose their nerves for the rest of the night.

The night was still so very young.

"FMS NUMBA ONE, DON'T BELIEVE? YOU KUKU."



Hurrah, new school.

Hurrah, new beginning.

Hurrah, homework!

Bugger.

I missed the Freshmen Orientation Camp - No more vacancies, they say. :(

At least I made it for the Film and Media Studies (FMS) camp. ;)

Hurrah, new people!

The last few days have been a blur - I'm half dead now from the lack of sleep, as with all camps.

Ice-breakers weren't half bad - Met cool, cool people. Thrown into SUPERHEROES. Sub-group SUPERMAN.

We're totally the strongest of them all. X-ray vision, super-human strength, and tight crimson underwear. Uh-huh.

Props to the Mass Dance too. Pretty well choreographed. Food isn't half bad, it was actually decent!

(And at this point of time, I seem to be giving a review. Monologues are not fun.)

Amazing race had Superman bonding pretty well - We laughed, we cheered, we broke a nail.

Oh. My. Gawd. I think I need a manicure - The sun, I swear, is ruining my gorgeous hair!

No, not that way.

Hmph.

I also like the night-walk! But I'll talk more about it next time round.

Off to bed.

Yay!

"Save point."

Applications have fallen through, and guess what?

I'm officially a Ngee Ann Polytechnic Mass Communication student, rumoured to be the best media-related course for Singapore tertiary education.

It's hard to believe it when one has gone through hell and high water to obtain the dreaded Singpass in order to be eligible for the Joint Application Exercise for polytechnics.

Maybe it was over-kill when I sent in applications for both JAE -and- JPSAE. I admit, DAE too. I blame it on Singaporean culture, and insecurities on my O'level score. I mean, I'm a JC dropout after all. Maybe I'm older, wiser, or even tougher - But I was a quitter.

And I promise myself right here and now, this will be first and last time that I ever do.

Scout's honour.

I'm glad that I've gotten another chance.

Relieved, to say the least, really. I'm finally pursuing my dreams as a media-related student.

Okay, maybe 'relieved' is an understatement. It is only when you realise that education is not compulsory anymore that you begin to cherish it - The same as everything else really.

We don't cherish anything until we've lost it.

So what now? I've heard that polytechnic education much more open than that of a JC education - But of course, I'm not following by ear. Experience ought to be first-hand.

Meh.

Mum was pretty much supportive - She treats this as a 'last chance'. Everything's a 'last chance' to her though.

Dad still doesn't know.

One step at a time, I suppose - Orientation's in a week, and I can't wait for it already.

Guess I'm in for one hell of a ride.

"Finally, something I can truly call myself! Ahahahahaha *snort*."

I've just taken a Personality Disorder test, courtesy from a very lovable source. It's hilarious, I tell you.

The scary thing is that it's highly accurate, at least in my opinion it is.

A series of questions and answers later, and you'll get your disorder with corresponding rating (it ranks from 'Low' to 'Very High' I believe).

I'll insert a short excerpt at the end of each P.D. for your reading convenience. That, and I don't like to steal bandwidth.


Common Personality Disorders

Paranoid: High

Paranoid personality disorder is characterized by a distrust of others and a constant suspicion that people around you have sinister motives. People with this disorder tend to have excessive trust in their own knowledge and abilities and usually avoid close relationships.

They search for hidden meanings in everything and read hostile intentions into the actions of others. They are quick to challenge the loyalties of friends and loved ones and often appear cold and distant. They usually shift blame to other people and tend to carry long grudges.

Symptoms include:-

• Unwillingness to forgive perceived insults
• Excessive sensitivity to setbacks
• Distrustfulness and excessive self-reliance
• Projection of blame onto others
• Consumed by anticipation of betrayal
• Combative and tenacious adherence to personal rights
• Relentlessly suspicious

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Schizoid: Moderate

People with schizoid personality disorder avoid relationships and do not show much emotion. Unlike avoidants, schizoids genuinely prefer to be alone and do not secretly wish for popularity. They tend to seek jobs that require little social contact.

Their social skills are often weak and they do not show a need for attention or acceptance. They are perceived by others as humorless and distant and often are termed "loners."

Symptoms suggest:-

• Weak interpersonal skills
• Difficulty expressing anger, even when provoked
• "Loner" mentality; avoidance of social situations
• Appear to others as remote, aloof, and unengaged
• Low sexual desire
• Unresponsive to praise or criticism

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Schizotypal: High

Many believe that schizotypal personality disorder represents mild schizophrenia. The disorder is characterized by odd forms of thinking and perceiving, and individuals with this disorder often seek isolation from others.

They sometimes believe to have extra sensory ability or that unrelated events relate to them in some important way. They generally engage in eccentric behavior and have difficulty concentrating for long periods of time. Their speech is often over elaborate and difficult to follow.

Symptoms include:-

• Superstitious or preoccupied with paranormal phenomena
• Difficult to follow speech patterns
• Feelings of anxiety in social situations
• Suspiciousness and paranoia
• Odd beliefs or magical thinking
• Appears shy, aloof, or withdrawn to others

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Antisocial: High

A common misconception is that antisocial personality disorder refers to people who have poor social skills. The opposite is often the case. Instead, antisocial personality disorder is characterized by a lack of conscience. People with this disorder are prone to criminal behavior, believing that their victims are weak and deserving of being taken advantage of.

Antisocials tend to lie and steal. Often, they are careless with money and take action without thinking about consequences. They are often aggressive and are much more concerned with their own needs than the needs of others.

Symptoms include:-

• Disregard for the feelings of others
• Impulsive and irresponsible decision-making
• Lack of remorse for harm done to others
• Lying, stealing, other criminal behaviors
• Disregard for the safety of self and others

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Borderline: Low

Borderline personality disorder is characterized by mood instability and poor self-image. People with this disorder are prone to constant mood swings and bouts of anger. Often, they will take their anger out on themselves, causing injury to their own body. Suicidal threats and actions are not uncommon.

Borderlines think in very black and white terms and often form intense, conflict-ridden relationships. They are quick to anger when their expectations are not met.

Symptoms include:-

• Self-injury or attempted suicide
• Strong feelings of anger, anxiety, or depression that last for several hours
• Impulsive behavior
• Drug or alcohol abuse
• Feelings of low self-worth
• Unstable relationships with friends, family, and boyfriends/girlfriends

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Histrionic: Moderate

People with histrionic personality disorder are constant attention seekers. They need to be the center of attention all the time, often interrupting others in order to dominate the conversation. They use grandiose language to discribe everyday events and seek constant praise. They may dress provacatively or exaggerate illnesses in order to gain attention.

Histrionics also tend to exaggerate friendships and relationships, believing that everyone loves them. They are often manipulative.

Symptoms include:-

• Needs to be the center of attention
• Dresses or acts provocatively
• Rapidly-shifting and shallow emotions
• Exaggerates friendships
• Overly-dramatic, occassionally theatrical speech
• easily influenced; highly suggestible

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Narcissistic: Very High

Narcissistic personality disorder is characterized by self-centeredness. Like histrionic disorder, people with this disorder seek attention and praise. They exaggerate their achievements, expecting others to recongize them as being superior. They tend to be choosy about picking friends, since they believe that not just anyone is worthy of being their friend.

Narcissists tend to make good first impressions, yet have difficulty maintaining long-lasting relationships. They are generally uninterested in the feelings of others and may take advantage of them.

Symptoms comprises of many elements, some being:-

• Requires excessive praise and admiration
• Takes advantage of others
• Grandiose sense of self-importance
• Lack of empathy
• Lying, to self and others
• Obsessed with fantasies of fame, power, or beauty

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Avoidant: Moderate

Avoidant personality disorder is characterized by extreme social anxiety. People with this disorder often feel inadequate, avoid social situations, and seek out jobs with little contact with others. Avoidants are fearful of being rejected and worry about embarassing themselves in front of others. They exaggerate the potential difficulties of new situations to rationalize avoiding them.

Often, avoidants will create fantasy worlds to substitute for the real one. Unlike schizoid personality disorder, avoidants yearn for social relations yet feel they are unable to obtain them. They are frequently depressed and have low self-confidence.

Symptoms suggest:-

• Social inhibition; retreating from others in anticipation of rejection
• Preoccupation with being rejected or criticized in social situations
• Fear of embarrassment results in avoidance of new activities
• Poor self-image; feelings of social ineptitude
• Desire for improved social relations
• Appear to others as self-involved and unfriendly
• Creation of elaborate fantasy lives

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Dependent: Low

Dependent personality disorder is characterized by a need to be taken care of. People with this disorder tend to cling to people and fear losing them. They may become suicidal when a break-up is imminent. They tend to let others make important decisions for them and often jump from relationship to relationship.

Dependents often remain in abusive relationships. Over-sensitivity to disapproval is common. Dependents often feel helpless and depressed.

Symptoms include:-

• Difficulty making decisions
• Feelings of helplessness when alone
• Suicidal thoughts upon rejection
• Submissiveness
• Deeply hurt by mild criticism or disapproval
• Unable to meet ordinary demands of life

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Obsessive-Compulsive: High

While Obsessive-Compulsive personality disorder (OCDP) sounds similar in name to obsessive-compulsive anxiety disorder, the two are markedly different disorders.

People with obsessive-compulsive personality disorder are overly focused on orderliness and perfection. Their need to do everything "right" often interferes with their productivity. They tend to get caught up in the details and miss the bigger picture. They set unreasonably high standards for themselves and others, and tend to be very critical of others when they do not live up to these high standards.

They avoid working in teams, believing others to be too careless or incompetent. They avoid making decisions because they fear making mistakes and are rarely generous with their time or money. They often have difficulty expressing emotion.

Symptoms suggests:-

• Need for perfection and excessive discipline
• Preoccupation with orderliness
• Inflexibility
• Lack of generosity
• Hyper-focus on details and rules
• Excessive devotion to work

Damn, I need help.
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