Wednesday, May 30, 2007
I'm Back!
"I'm back, stronger than ever. YOU HAVE RUBBED OFF YOUR NICENESS ONTO ME! "
... THE ELECTRICITY'S BACK.
WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
I apologise, no pictures of the place was taken today. Kinda forgot, haha.
Again, empty promises to all you people- but I'll remember to get pictures posted ASAP.
Okay, now to business.
First off, I'll like to thank everyone right now who has been helpin' meh. It has really been a trying period, and I appreciate all that everyone's been doing for me.
Really!
Don't know what else to say other than that, leh. I'll get broke if I say "next time makan my treat". Mwahahaha!
Oh yeah, before I continue...
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Lalala: do it with don get your house burnt down.
IP Address: 220.255.138.144
My, my.
What are you driving at?
Time to pull your head outta your ass and
Bring it on, baybeh.
Edit:- I'm feeling nice now.
Come on, be nice! =D
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I'm
horrible that way.
Yeah, I'm back!
"And when you've hit rock-bottom, the only way you can go is UP!"
Ha, I'll still have to see a councellor one day, but I think my mental state's back.
Rested, relieved, and ready to take on whatever the world can throw at me again.
"It's the times of adversity do you grow and learn to overcome..."
I approached YJC this morning, tired as heck.
Looked for the Miss Tan, my CT. She wasn't around. Nevertheless, I went to look for the Mrs Ng, le principle. It was waitin' for her that I got to talk to the clerk. It's amazing how powerful her pick-me-ups were. I felt a new strength stirring within me.
For that one time in months, Life was actually worth livin'.
Okay lah, so I sounded emo in that last sentence, but walau, Life is worth livin' lor.
I read Phyllis's blog a few moments ago- She mentioned something about faith. No offence ar, I'm going to respond to this as impartially as I can.
It goes like this:
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" Firstly. I dont know if Weiwen will read this or not, but if your friends list exhaust and need my help, just give me a call/message and i'll be down in a jiffy.
Okay that's not my main point, the thing is, he mentioned something about religion in his blog after his house caught fire. He mentioned something like although his Buddha statues are all burnt, he still lit the joss sticks and prayed for safety.
More like for him to hang on to something when there's nothing more to let him rely on. I guess that's why so many people have a religion. In times of desperation, they will only have their beliefs to rely on and pray for safety/goodluck/to seek solace/etc.
Im not saying that religions are serving the sole purpose of giving people the pillar of strength to carry on when all the others fail but think about it, why do people seek help from the unseen rather than from other people? There are so many people in the world, surely at least one can be of help?"
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You're such a dear, haha.
When this incident happened, I felt lost.
I lost not only my house, but my home. The one true thing that I hold dear to my heart.
It pains me to see my mother in such a state- Her injuries comprised of both the mental and physical aspect. There was no way Mum could do all these on her own.
As for Dad, I am not ashamed to say that he's no longer there for us.
When I called him, all he said was "I will try to help". When asked for a definite answer of "yes" or "no", he told me that he couldn't answer that question. It's alright, I'm accepting it, I guess. He's still my father after all.
So then, I was on my own. I admit, I did lose hope for a while- I thought that there was nothing else for me to hold on to. I'm still trying to understand this, but Man has somewhat created religion in order to invoke inner strength, or something.
Troubled times require reassurance, and that's what religion to me is about, partially at least.
I lit joss-sticks and prayed not for safety- I was thankful.
Grateful that my family came out of this alive.
I respect the Buddha for his teachings, however (I'm so going to hell for this) weird it can be.
It is through his words that I live my life, even though I may stray from the path set for me.
I chose this religion for myself when I realised that I was no longer bound to accepting what my parents set for me- They have taught me to be independent via His teachings.
And I'm glad it has paid off- This is being put to good use now.
I'm not the best example for fellow Buddhists- trust me on this one, because I have violated at least... all of it. I don't abide, I take into consideration, I guess.
I didn't seek help from the Buddha- I realised that I was seeking self-assurance. I had to clear the self-doubt before continuing.
And to achieve that, I had to seek help from others.
And I have.
Hella grateful that my call for help was answered.
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Religion is one thing- Belief is another.
It's not a question of what religion to choose, but what you believe in.
Now I ask all of you readers this question: What do you believe in, and why?
Sometimes the answer may just be around the corner, sometimes it may be far from what we expect.
Think about it.
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UPDATE:-HAHAHAHA ELECTRICITY'S UP. One month of work, completed in three days.
Mum's room kinda finished cleaning. Window frames were installed today, instead of the scheduled Friday! Yay!
Patching of wall has somewhat been completed. WOOT.
Master Bedroom's toilet has been pretty much restored except for the lack of lighting- I'ma have to go get some from a lighting shop soon. YAY SHOPPING.
I made myself a small "pad" to rest in the balcony. It looks pretty decent. Must get pictures!
Jerico, Joo, and Anson came down today to help out. SUPERVISE HAHA. Bhanglas need supervision! >=(
The house is drier than yesterday! I can clean the dust off with BROOMS now, zomg.
Mum's gettin' better. She even cracked a joke with me today. LAME.
Approached YJC for a consent to submit a bursary form. Le Principle was very, very nice. She sent YJC'S Operation Manager to HELP ME, HAHAHAHAHA.
Everything's taking shape right now.
Very appreciative.
Let's make me a home!
WOO!
TO-DO LIST:-IT'S VESAK DAY TOMORROW OMG CRAP. Need to relocate the Buddhas while I clean up this sanctuary.
CLEAN FURNITUREEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
Submit forms.
Buy paint and furniture- GET READY FOR PAINTING!!
Change doors and arrange for window panes to come in.
Choose paint colours! Pink looks good, but blue looks awesome too!
Go to temple and pray, haha. Vesak Day!
Pictures- Because all of you have been super supportive! RAWR.
Friday- PAINTING BEGINS. NEED HELP PL0X!
I love being back.
CHEERS!
